Coming up on 2 months since I pulled the rip cord, leaving corporate. Each month I try to reflect back on this journey, what I’ve learned, what I need to learn and where the hell am I going. What the hell was I thinking, exiting a great paying corporate job with benefits and security, all the while, the world is on fire. The most unbelievable election in our history and its aftermath. A global pandemic. Country divided. And I’m going to step out and try to plant my flag as a fledgling artist and carve out a niche for myself?
Actually, sounds like a great idea. Why not.
What I’m learning though, resilience is vital.
My plate is full. Have Carving commissions and a long list of work I’d like to complete for the market. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll take on more commissions. Let’s talk. Then there’s the Barn. As I sit down and write out the list of To Do’s for each room of the Barn, I get overwhelmed. For a while I was paralyzed by the list of stuff. Where do I spend my time? I began to worry about what’s going to get me the most bang for my buck. Then I got stuck. Wasn’t moving the ball in either direction.
Then I realized…I’m actually living out my dream. Holy crap.
I’m trading in the early morning. Getting to the Barn by late morning and either carving or restoring. Working for 10+ hours. Not really feeling like work. Holy crap.
This is what I’ve been dreaming about. This is why I pulled the cord. I was so consumed by the individual enormity of it all I forgot to look at the big picture. Now I’m breaking it all down, managing smaller bite size pieces and making incremental progress. It’s what I used to preach in my former corporate life. Forgot my own mantra.
Then I realized I’m giving away too much power to people outside of my control. I can’t give control of my destiny to others. I can’t wait for them. I have to carve out the path. If they want to join, then so be it. Not the other way around.
I’ve seen recent carnage at a former company that I worked at for almost 13 years. People that held that place together through more bad times, than good. Made it relevant. Kept it relevant. Knows more about the company than the rotating set of Execs that come in for 2-3 year stints, hit their financial targets and move on. Leaving a void. They advertise about how caring they are about their people, just checking a social media HR box. Trying to act like a Start Up, instead of embracing who they really are and celebrating the authenticity of that. I know it's just Corporate America. I know many of those people that were impacted. They’re resilient. They’ll land on their feet. They’ll help a competitor grow.
I don’t know where this will all lead to. Our country. Our politics. Our social fabric. The pandemic. The markets. I can’t control any of it. All I can do is remain resilient. Carve out my path. Be a good human. Do what’s right. Be kind. Live out the dreams I’ve had in my head for a while now. Take it to the end and then look up and see where I am. I know I’m surrounded by love. Have an incredible family. Have incredible friends. I’m lucky. I’m resilient.
Now for some shameless self-promotion:
Please check out my website at bobbruu.com
Check out my Instagram Pages
- My Personal Page with the latest on my Carvings https://www.instagram.com/bob_bruu_wood_carver/
- Our newest page, chronicling the restoration of our 100 yr old Barn https://www.instagram.com/the_mckinney_barn_co/
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